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Not sure what is putting Sophia out of sorts today. Three times I've tried to put her down for a nap to no avail. Tired though she is, she just cries and cries. I wonder if she's teething again. But I'm sure tired and wish I could take a nap.
It seems like all I do anymore is complain. I wish I could bear this exhaustion and queasiness with patience and good grace. But it's inconvenient and I just want to get back to life at a regular pace. I want to be able to cook and clean and get ready for Christmas and enjoy time with my girls. And instead I spend the day obsessing about food and sleeping because those are the two factors I can kind of control that seem to mitigate the sick feeling. At least I haven't thrown up yet, so I'm doing better so far than I did with Bella or Sophie.
So I'm sorry to all my loyal readers. I hope my bellyaching doesn't drive you all off. But this blog is first and foremost my vehicle for dealing with all of life's ups and downs. I'm not here to win a popularity contest, to win friends and influence people. I'm just trying to get through the days as best I can and I need to vent off steam in order to not get too pressurized. I'll hopefully get back to sweetness and profound thoughts in another month or so when I hit that happy second trimester.
I'm on the other end--i have a 5 week old- but I understand how you feel. I was just saying to my husband today that its hard to write cards, wrap presents, bake, and get ready for out of town family when I'm spending part of each hour nursing a baby.I keep feeling like saying that I'm getting nothing done, but than I realize this is what I'm meant to be doing right now. And I was rewarded today at her 1 month checkup with an almost 3lb weight gain. So, take comfort in the fact that you are doing just what you are meant to be. And believe me, obsessing about sleep is perfectly normal. You are in my prayers.
Jessica
P.S.-I just realized i had an old email so I changed it to the right one.
Cheer up, Melanie - certainly there's no need for you to apologize! I guess 95% of your readers have gone through the same - early pregnancy can be though (and sometimes it stays so for the whole 9-month package!): it makes you feel sick, weak, moody, fragile... But as you said, it's not forever! And don't forget that, at the center of all this craziness, there's your baby, whom I hope you'll soon be able to see in the first sonogram. I am so excited for you!
As far as your readers are concerned, we'reading you to get the whole picture, so we'll take the steam as happily as we take the sweetness and the deep thoughts ;-)
I don't blame you in the least for bellyaching. I know I did enough of it at that stage.
Thanks everyone, you all make me feel much better.
